Tuesday, April 14, 2009

Calm frustration...

I'm just going to come right out and say it: I'm addicted to The Food Network. Not sure how much of a problem that is...oh well.

So I've felt completely useless lately. I'm just sitting here. Doing nothing. I can't do anything at all right now, though!! I have no money. Literally. It's sad how poor I am right now. I don't even have enough money to call someone from a payphone. Still waiting for my Utah state tax return--it won't be much, but better than nothing!!

So there's the fact that I have no money and then the very real fact that there is NOTHING for me to do...until I go to Utah. Then I'll be busy!

I can't wait until I move into my own place. Ahhh....my own place again--that will be awesome. I get so frustrated/annoyed when I live at someone else's house (like now--living at my dad's place) because I have no control over anything! Not that I need to be in control over EVERYTHING... It's just stuff like the way the cupboards are organized and stuff like that. If I'm totally annoyed by the dysfunctionality of anything, there's nothing I can do about it!

It will be fun to create a home again. And I love to cook, so I'll get to try out all the new recipe ideas inspired by my overwatching of the food network!! Yay!! I just can't cook in this house!! Everything from the dishes to the countertops frustrates me. And no matter how clean everything is, it still seems dirty. I don't know if that's because of my incompatibility with the "organization" of things, or because of the clutter or what--I just can't do it. And that makes me sad....

*sigh*

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