Monday, July 19, 2004

Explanation



Hello all! It feels good to be writing again. Someone wrote me and asked me why it was that I always signed my entries “The Keeper of The Flame”. Here is an explanation:

Keeper of the Flame
(I don’t know who wrote it)

Believing – receiving the burning inside.
Learning and yearning for greater light.
Melting the frost,
Moving the lost
Through the winds of change,
Encircled by the clouds of pain.
I guard it with my life.
I need the warmth,
I need the light.
Though the storm will rage,
I stand against the pounding rain.
I remain
A keeper of the flame.
Inspiring fire-blazing in truth.
Living and giving, leading to you.
Filling my soul,
(I’m) Willing to go
Through the winds of change,
Encircled by the clouds of pain.
I guard it with my life.
I need the warmth,
I need the light.
Though the storm will rage,
I stand against the pounding rain.
And I remain
A keeper of the flame.
I remain a Keeper of The Flame.

It really is a shame I don’t know the author. It’s actually a song. I heard it once and fell in love with it. I really connect with that song on a personal level. I see it as both literal and metaphorical. I think that the storm and the rain could really be just that, but also they represent life’s struggles, trials, and tribulations, you know? I also think that it could literally mean a fire or flame—but also, that “flame” could/does represent something. Like the gospel (I know that sounds corny…) or a belief or faith - or anything at all, really. The flame could be whatever you want it to be. I see it as a sort of divine truth, if that makes sense. Something almost unexplanable, but really it’s very simple and beautiful. I don’t even know how to explain it to myself, really. I just understand it. Once you see the words to the song, it becomes something personal to you, I think. So I am a “Keeper of The Flame”—whatever that means to me. I hope that all made sense and I hope that answered your question.

Anyway, now that that’s all said and done, I won’t ever have to explain it to people. I was just waiting for someone to ask what that meant.

Well, this week should be a little more interesting. I have to go to the social security office place and get a new card (yay) and then I have some orientation at work (also yay). I don’t know how busy that is going to keep me, but I hope that I have an insane schedule so I won’t be so bored….

Man, this whole moving thing is going by really slowly. I wish August would just hurry up already! I want to just leave and get it over with and restart back at home. But then again, I want to be here with everyone. It’s bitter-sweet I guess, but more sweet. Everything is just dragging along though. I wish my life would just at least pick up a normal pace, if not a fast one. I’m seriously on the verge of packing all of my stuff into suitcases right now, but then that would get annoying because I’m not leaving for another month. And then when it comes time to pack, it will already be done and I’ll have nothing to do! So I’ll just sit here and be bored until my life picks up a little. Hmf.

Oh! Here’s something: My nutty mom thinks I should go out for Miss Spanish Fork (my home town that I’m flying back to). I don’t know. The pageant would be next spring. I’m not sure if I even want to think about it. It would be a fun experience, if anything. I think I could stand a chance. But then again, there are a lot of beautiful, talented girls in SF that I don’t know if I could compete with. Well, no wait. Those are girls that go to my high school. And most of the pretty, talented ones live in Salem, so maybe I could do it. Hehe I don’t know. I’d do it for the scholarship money. I think that’s what you get if you win….

I guess that’s all for now. I’ll get back to you when I actually have something to write about.

Ashley—The Keeper of The Flame

P.S. I totally saw Willie Nelson today at the Arch!! It was awesome!!



*Imported from my first blog on mindsay.com*

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