Thursday, June 17, 2004

The Beginning

Okay. So I don't know what to do. I just started this thing because my friend, Sean, always talks about his Blog and shows me updates and stuff. So I wondered what the crap it was. I went to the site and I decided to make one of my own.

So yeah. Today I had to see my bofriend, Mark, off at the airport. It was tough. All of the memories of all of the fun times we've had kept running through my head and all I could think about was how much I'm going to miss him. So I guess I'm a little depressed right now. We have been dating for almost eleven months now. We hang out all the time. Basically every day. I don't know what to do now. I just have this big empty space that he used to fill, but now he's gone. What do I do? He's my best friend. He and I could sit and do absolutely nothing and be perfectly content. I was happy whenever I was with Mark. And now what? It just hurts so much to not have him here. If I want to hug him or kiss him or anything like that, I can't. I can't and that hurts. I'm crying right now. He's in Cape cod. Right now. He's in Cape Cod instead of here with me. I hate that. He went out there to work for his uncle Rocky to earn money for his Mission. I know he needs to be out there because he needs to go on a Mission. And to do that, he needs money. It still hurts though. I'll miss him for a long time.

Anyway, enought of the depressing stuff. This summer is....well, it sucks so far. I've done absolutely nothing. Well, that's a lie. I actually went to the St. Louis Arch-that was cool. And then Mark took me out on one of those paddle boats with the peddles. You know what I'm talking about? Anyway, that was tons of fun. But now I'm talking about Mark again. Well, I guess there's no avoiding it. He and I did almost everything together.

Well, this totally sucks. Things'll get more interesting once I find my groove with this. Until next time.




*Imported from my first blog on mindsay.com*

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